Title: Wounds
Author: Am-Chau Yarkona
Rating: PG
Pairing: Hawkeye/Sidney
Disclaimer: MASH isn't mine. No profit made from this.
Summary: Hawkeye thinks about what he wants.
In time, the nightmares will fade, you said. In time, all things will be healed.
I’m not so sure. There are some wounds that I don’t want to heal—not the physical ones, born of weapons and fire and falling; not the wounds of the spirit that are made by exhaustion and fear—no, those can be healed with time and skill.
The wounds I want to keep are those in my soul, the cuts made when you touch me, the sweet pain of being with you seared into me forever.
We can’t stay together. We’re in the army. I’m a doctor, you’re a psychiatrist. For us to even think about a long-term love affair would be crazy: but in the night, in my darkness and my drunkenness, when we can touch unseen and feel unnoticed, I can love you.
And I don’t want that to fade with time, however nightmarish it feels.